this is so awesome
we watched the video, Fire Proof, last night and starting the Dare this morning.

This morning was started day 1. it speaks of patience. We read it together. We read the Bible verse together. We talk about how it went to both of us in some areas in our relationship. Then afterwards...now sit down for this...this is a bombshell. Marty said Now will you pray over our day. (he said he doesn't know how to pray yet) So I prayed over our day, our children, the roads we will travel, and bring us all together again.
It was so awesome!
I think first thing this morning the Devil tested my patience. YOu see Jennie (marty's mother) would call to make sure I got Morgan up. Made me feel like I couldn't do it.) This morning the phone rang and it was Marty. First thing I asked him was is he calling to make sure I got Morgan up. Now get this. Marty has never called to ask me that. It was always Jennie. But that was the first thing that popped in my head. I should have had patience to see what he was calling about. BUT that was the Devil trying to creep in.

doing the trim work is HARD work. I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere in the past hour and half. My back is hurting...loll

Toby...Kelsey's new puppy. We are finding Kiki a new home. Since she is a female. Kelsey picked out the puppy that was born at the same time she was at 443am on Oct 17, 2009.
Toby is 2 1/2 weeks old....

well got the walls washed down. The filling stuff sanded. The got some dinner on. I think I will work on my pen pal letters then pull up the rest of the nails that are in the floor. Oh I got some devotional time in this morning. I have been lacking on that lately.

I posted an ad on craiglist for the first time. Boy I already got 4 replies. I am trying to find a home for the puppies and the mother by the time they are 6 weeks old. Looks like a lot of people use craig's list.

We have been working on cleaning up the living room, washing down walls, filling in holes. Today I think we will be ready to paint.

The old believe everything, the middle-aged suspect everything, the young know everything.

Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

Let's Pray
Father, my faith seems so small and weak. I confess that I have allowed fear to invade my heart and mind. Right now, I choose against that fear and step out in faith, thanking You for what You have done in my life, for what You are going to do today and in every tomorrow of my life. Make me aware of Your presence today and give me the courage to share with others what You have done for me.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

I cant believe I woke up this morning at 538 thinking it was 538. I had forgot to set my clocks back. So it was really 438. I couldn't go back to sleep so we got up. wow!

I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence.

Frederick Douglass (1817-1895)

Ceiling of the Sistine Chapel Completed (1512)
In 1508, Pope Julius II commissioned Michelangelo to paint the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel. The work was completed in 1512 and features over 300 biblical figures and nine episodes from the Book of Genesis. Below these scenes are the statuesque figures of prophets and sibyls, with episodes from the Old Testament in the spandrels. The last great work Michelangelo executed in the chapel was The Last Judgment.

Marty pulled over in Collinsville last night on way home from Gasden. I wasn't expecting him to get out and tell me to drive. You see I don't know how to drive a straight shift. He has tried to show me before but lost his temper. This time he didn't lose his temper. I drove for about 20 minutes. Once we got home he got me to stop and start then stop and start again explaining how to stop and start. I was nervous at first. My whole body couldn't stop shaking I was so nervous. But I can admit by the end of the 20 minutes I had stopped shaking. I was tickled to death that I did as well as I did. I called Kelsey to tell her how well I did. Mom said it is about time I learned. They didn't seem as excited as I did. It was nice being able to take Marty's instructions without him losing his temper. He says I will drive tomorrow. Oh boy! Everyone get off the road. lol

All the puppies eyes are open today.

Today's Truth
Ecclesiastes 3:1 "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity..."

Today's Truth
"Moses answered the people, 'Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today ... the LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still'" (Exodus 14:13-14, NIV).
Every one of us doubts at times. We all fail to trust. Scripture assures us that even when we are faithless, God remains faithful. As we walk broken paths that challenge our faith, the truth remains that God does deliver in and through the pain. Though there are struggles that we might take to the grave with us, God is still good. Each hard place is an opportunity for Jesus to show His power in and through our lives.
Let's Pray
Dear Lord, forgive me for the times when I try to navigate the deep waters of life on my own. When my heart is heavy with burdens, please give me Your strength and remind my soul to trust You. I need Your guidance and power today.
Now It's Your Turn
Do you feel like God has led you through the desert?

Do you trust that He can and will make a way for your Red Seas to be parted when you call on Him?

Grab a journal (if you're a journal girl). Spend a few moments contemplating the circumstances of your harder way. Then lift your eyes from your situation to your Savior. Call on God, and say to your soul: "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today...the LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."" (Exodus 14:13-14, NIV)

All puppies almost 2 weeks old...

Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is
taking the risk to be alive.. the risk to be alive and express
what we really are.

We had a nice dinner together. Eating at the diner table was nice. Now we are sitting together talking. My computer is hooked up beside his and we are checking emails and chatting. It is so neat to have him right beside me. We have done some more long talking again today.
Just got off the phone with mom. Nancy (pops) sister called them talking about how mad her and pops is mad at me for going back to Marty. Pops hasn't called me. He is pouting like a child. He needs to be here for me instead of being selfish. Oh well. He is who he is. They just had no business calling my mother and talking to them.
Calling it a night. Going to take a shower and watch a little TV.

I got 24 hrs down. It was a little hard last night when everything is quite. my mind begins to run. So i took something to sleep. I just have a small headaches this morning. In God's name and faith in Him I will get thru this day by day. I want to cry really hard one time but I think I will fall apart if I do. so I am trying not to. I got most of my things in the trailor. I get my water turned on today so I am excited. I spent the first night at my parents house because I had no water. Kelsey is scared about starting school but we have faith that she will be fine. Every child goes thru this when they start a new school this late in school (8th) grade. Milo is adjusting well. Kiki is having a hard time. She doesnt like people coming around her puppies at first. But once I get her to calm down she is fine. She lets the kids look at her puppes. My sister, April, gave me a lot of stuff I didn't have, She was so glad to have me back home. My grandmother called and was so excited. I had to answer another phone call and she didn't wait for me to call back. She called back in 5 minutes. In due time the seperation pain will pass! I have faith and am strong enough to know this with all my heart!

well I did it. I took the HUGE plunge. It was scary. It was horrible thinking about it but I did it. I am ok. I have a few bad moments but I am ok. Kelsey is ok also. We have a nice little trailer set up just for the two of us. Marty beg me to stay. He said it was a shock that I was leaving. I have been telling him for a few weeks now. I have told him on and off. I finally just took the plunge. What put the iceing on the cake was how he acted about the whole situation of the death of James, Kelsey biological father. I jsut couldn't take his selfish ways any more. I understand how he felt about him trying to raise kelsey. But this was for her. So I put my feellings aside so I can be there for her. She needed himto be there for her. But he wasn't because he didn't agree to it and he didn't want to go to my parents house. I packed my things this morning and withdrewal Kelsey from school and put in a change of address. Around 11 Marty called asking why am I leaving him. I was strong. This is what I want. This is what I need. This is what I am sticking to. Marty has emailed me tonight saying he didn't know what he had till he lost it. He always thought I was a good wife. He will always love me and hopes Kelsey and me will be fine. I have his number if I need him. Well right now I jsut can't talk to him. I ask for one thing and he tried to keep that from me. After 8 yrs together he didnt want me to have anything to drive. I took the van anyway. I wrote him back letting him know we are ok. All I ask for is for the van. I asked him to please spend time with his son. He means more to him than the game. This all hurts but I know the pain will go away soon enough. So just keep me in your prayers!